Instead of being so focused on me and my people, I'm learning to know new people and lifestyles and ways of doing things.
I have my set emotions I usually feel -sad, unfulfilled and worried in my unhappier moments and, more often content in boringness, happy and confident. Now, though, I've j u m p e d > > > so so far
out of my comfort zone that I don't even have the same emotions. Instead of worrying of longterm life plans I'm wondering *how I'll make it to Friday.* Instead of feeling like I'm not sharing God and myself with enough people, I feel like I can't give everyone in my life the time and attention they deserve. I'm lonely in my hectic busyness and fighting a little to find contentment in giving. The one emotion that I feel the same as always, is confident. Confident that with God I can and will do this; confident that I am in the right place, that I'm here for a reason, and that God set me here.
*ask and it shall be given you*
My heart loves this verse. It begs God for lots of things, but always the same two things. In my journey to figure exactly what my role in this new community, in my new job, and in my new church is, I made several intense, pleading requests to God this week -the two things I always instinctively ask for, and two more.
1. Life
2. Love
3. A miracle for the saddest N boy who goes to my school
4. That when God needs my help I will cooperate
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