SappyNess

What positive connections am I creating with the people around met?
That's what I said I'd write about next and so I will do that. I don't want to though because it makes me feel inadequate and selfish and it's infinitely harder to identify the ways I'm positively influencing people than the to identify the ways they're blessing me.
I have no doubt that God is using me to lift someone else. That said, I have very little idea what those ways are.
The words "give someone a hand and you both climb higher" do rest on one hallway wall of my school, reminding us all to do the second mile, kindness thing. And although I fight sappy cliches, this one is true. When I keep my voice level and spend 5 minutes repeating what I've just said until S finally catches on, she's happy because,
#1. She didn't get yelled at so she feels confident, not stupid.  
#2. She finally understands how to multiply fractions.
I'm happy too because,
#1. I kept calm and patient so I feel confident and good about myself.
 #2. S finally understands how to multiply fractions.
I gave  her a hand and we both climbed higher up the ladder of knowledge, each in a different way.

Another blessing thing I did was to step out of my comfort zone and into the back bench at church yesterday and begin a conversation with a friendless young mother and her two gorgeous TinyGirls. Was she blessed? I don't know. I do know that I was blessed by the happy feeling that reaching out gives me and, really, I think she was blessed too.
Being a blessing involved washing the supper dishes for the Lady on the Mainfloor. It constituted taking C home after the party last night. Being a blessing was sending a random fun text to a friend and also buying 9 rolls of brown paper so T+T+B+B had one less thing on their lengthy grocery list. Being a blessing the rest of my the week will mean giving 2 of my after-schools and evenings  to cooking and serving at a fundraiser.

I feel like throwing this post into the  proverbia garbage can because I'm not good at writing on demand and so this sounds stilted and awkward and fake. I'm also not good at bragging sometimes. But which is more important -not posting something if it's abnormal for/unlike me or trying to grow my words and feelings by writing something Out of character once in a while?