Three

Years. And tonight the tears fall cos I suddenly feel a visceral pain tighten around my heart. Hot tears fall for these 3 long years worth of You we’ve missed. Three years of little girl hugs, of little girl laughs, of being able to comfort and love you every day. 3 years is so long. But also it feels like yesterday that I hugged you goodbye and left with tears in my eyes. 

Some say a picture is worth 1000 words. But I’d trade the few precious pictures I have of you for 1000 words exchanged with you. I wish I had a do over of the 5 years I knew you. Not becos I regret a single moment of loving You, but becos I would give almost anything to still have You. 

Three. Years. And when a friend and I commiserate about losing a Sister, or, in my case, Two, both our eyes glisten with tears and our voices kinda choke to a stop as we still try to adapt to our lives sans Sisters.