When You Come to That Place

Sometimes I feel like an imposter. A sinner dressed like I'm saved. A wild child masquerading as controlled. A devil worshipper convincing the world I am A Christian...a Christian...a christian..christian...hristian...ristian..istian...stian...tian...ian...an...n

Slowly Im falling apart until the only part of Christian left in me is a lonely shaky 'n.'
By then I have no strength left to stand; I feel like I'm being pulled under 6 foot waves of confusion and selfishness. Then I have nothing to hold me, nothing to support me, nothing to keep me fighting through those waves. Nothing but Jesus' promise:
When you come to the place that I'm all you have, then you'll find I'm all you need.

" Lean on Me
When you have no strength to stand;
When you feel you're going under, 
Holder tighter to My hand. 
Lean on Me
When your heart begins to bleed. 
When you come to the place that I'm all you have, then you'll find
I'm All You Need. "

-from the Sunset Watcher, rising out of the waves, only because I'm holding the hand of The One who controls them.

((Post inspired by myself and Lean On Me, a song written by Gary Mathena.))